arrrggghhh...

why this country-spesific url, how to unspesific it..help me..i need to read blogs are not related on politics, hatred, conspiracy etc...it makes me depressed..

hai, hello...i can't sleep. i feel restless or maybe just lonely. did you ever felt lonely? most of us did or do or don't even know how to feel..how are we react to these feeling? i tried to read some book, finished 1 this evening, a love story, happy ending..wish mine were the same. my story feel like hanging in between, not happy nor sad..it't ok but i want more, greedy.


the weather very hot tonight..hope its rain and have cool night sleep.


and i tried to search and learn to plant some tomatoes...what kind of tomatoes..any suggestion? i want to have some green in my house, i bought 2 pot of plant, like cactus and aloe vera kind...i don't keep pet because they die..i will feel miserable. yes, plant is better alternative to keep me accupied, for awhile.


its 2.08am, my handphone is charged, i will try to sleep..good night.

SESAK DADA..

Dah tahun 2012 kan...setahun lebih tak tulis apa2 kan...hari ni tetiba rasa sakit hati & rasa mcm tak ada tempat nak luahkan..abg sibuk td, telefon pun tak dpt nak ngadu..rasa dah tepu kat kepala sampai tak tau nak mula kat mana...

 

'hidup susah, mati lagi susah'

blog ni nama kisah si ketam kan, sbb aku bintang ketam..sbg ketam jiwa aku sensitif skit..aku ni sensitif byk, over-emosional kadang2..mcm ketam luar nampak keras tp dalam lembut dan lembik..tu kadang2 org ckp cepat terasa..aku cuba utk keraskan hati hingga kelihatan mcm aku tak peduli..'lantak kau la' attitude.

 

haa..hati aku dah lega skit, walau tak luah semua, atleast ada laluan nak salurkan..rasa mcm ada kawan yg dengar dgn baik..dengar dgn senyap..tq