Loves hurt..

Dear journal,

I'm sorry I haven't talk to you lately. Love really hurts..Truly deeply hurts. There's so much I want to tell you but i can't put it into words. There's so much in my head right now it makes me want to explode. Love can make you do anything, endure anything but if love ignore you, you go crazy.

All kind of things come to your mind. He doesn't love me anymore or have someone else. Or does he cheat on you? Oh, i'm tired thinking of it. I just want to be happy(not ha ha happy) just happy with someone at my side, but why it's so hard?

I don't think i'm asking to much out of him. I don't demand expensive things (or should i?). I just want him to be with me.

I hate myself for being so weak. I read books & play games to forget about it but every few minutes i'll check my handphone to see if there's a mesage from him. And it makes my heart ache so bad.

I don't know what he wants.

Friday

Dear journal..

Almost 2pm & i'm really sleepy. I just read other people blog. Very interesting to know what other people want to talk about..I make my comment on some of them and suddenly it hit me...What if they dont understand me because my english not very good? What if they misinterpreted or i misspelled or my grammer was wrong?

I don't know what they will think but you know what i'll do?

Keep writing it untill i die or dont want to write anymore..
And feels good about it...really good

Thursday again..

Dear journal,

Guess what, i still have my job..he he

There's many rumours circulating around the office right now, new administration and all...But that's not what i want to write today. I want to write a quote for Melissa who loves them very much (but i don't who wrote this quote) :

'It's nice to be important but its more important to be nice'

I hope you will like it..

Have a nice day.

Thursday

Dear jounal,

Im a little sad that no body read my blog. I love to read any comment from anyone, feels im not invisible. I know i sound pathetic but i cant help it feel that way..
You know, yesterday i had a fight with my boyfriend and i thought we were gonna break up.. Thank God he had a little more patience than i had.. This morning it turn out ok between us..

The company i work have been in trouble for so long and this weekend its gonna have major alteration to its operation department, i dont know if i still have my job by the end of this month..

Ohh, dont be so dramatic, its not that bad..

Ok, that it for now.